randomness.....

after saving and saving...this weekend, we got a new camera! yay.

mr. leif and i did a little photo shoot in our kitchen, even though i have no clue how to really use it yet. i will learn though :)

oh, and yummidy yum yum

i had this for dinner tonight. best dinner in a while :)

tonight,

there was a cat (not ours because i'm scared of cats, and strongly dislike them) stuck in the loft of our garage. not sure how it got up there. and it really freaked me out. i was too scared to crawl after it. it was making freaky meow noises, ones that might create a nightmare. i just left the garage door, open for an hour,hoping somehow it would make the 10 ft. plunge down and land on its feet (right?) and then dash out of the garage. i haven't heard the wacko meows for a while, so i think it finally figured out a plan of escape. i hope. otherwise that sucker is going to have to wait until mr. leif gets back.......which is not for a while.

tonight,

i am hoping for a snow day tomorrow. i would like that, a lot. i need to finish a final for one masters class and then do my final project for the other masters class. a snow day would be nice. maybe i would get those two things done, and clean my house? snow day? yes please. oh well, at least i don't have to clean the toilets. mr. leif did that this weekend.

i love him.

tonight,

i am watching one tree hill and gossip girl. because i am bored. because i did 2 out of 6 essay questions and that was my goal. because i don't really want to do anything else but be curled up on the couch, while wishing for a snow day.

tonight,

i am so thankful for my husband. when i think of him i smile. i love thinking about him, and more recently, deeply praying for him. it has been the most remarkable feeling, praying for him. through prayer, and lifting him up to God, i feel strangely closer to him during the week. it is so cool.

peace

xoxo

linds

the waters rise...

this song sums up how i feel. kinda.

i find myself thinking, “when’s it coming?” i often wonder when i will face a horribly scary struggle, one that tests my faith and builds perseverance, like we are told here: James 1:2-4.

but i know now, that i am in a storm. a raging sea. he is in st. louis and i am here. it's hard and it's wearing on me. overflowing joy used resonate in my daily life. it's often easier to ignore it and go on with life, seeming happy to those around me. being successful at work and in school is how i can create a mask. but i want to write about it. so thanks for listening.

the waters keep rising and i fall deep into this battle with staying happy while he's gone. stay posititive. but it's so wearing. he is my best friend, my kindred spirit. he listens to my hopes, my dreams, my complaints, my jokes, and now i have all of those million thoughts in my mind everyday and only the only thing I come home to are the spiders :)

what a weird season in my life.
i’ve never lived alone.
i know i am not truly alone.

when i listen to this song i am comforted.

He will never let go…my soul overflows with the love He has for me and it fills me with hope.
so, as i continue to swim…….i think i just need to turn over and do the back float for a while. to rest. to admit that life's hard right now.

in the mean time…….i suppose i can talk to my laundry and blast amazing music like the david crowder band and mike’s chair.

...

it is nice getting my thoughts typed down. i like this.

Two Fish...not currently in the same pond

welcome :)

i am so delighted to begin this blog...and even more excited that my first post is a piece of lovely news.

as many of my 'soon to be readers' already know, mr. leif is working just south of st. louis from july until may. so yes, as my title to this post reads, we are two fish not currently living in the same pond. this has been a strange experience. 2 months have gone by, and typically when someone asks how i'm doing, i say "fine", "great", or "not too bad". but...last sunday i had a mini break down, just a few tears. amongst the shedding of tears, i said a few words to mr. leif...like..."can you look for a new job", "i can't do this any more", "i am tired of being tough". sadly, those comments were disrespectful and dishonoring to him as my husband and our family provider. BUT as i noted earlier, i have lovely news...............

on sunday night, mr. leif and i were invited to an evening, with friends from church, all about this great ministry. while i listened to the wisdom of older, married couples, i realized God has taken mr. leif from me, for just a short time, for a reason. yes, God has put mr. leif in st. louis because i need to work on something. that something is my personal relationship with Him... let me explain...mr. leif and i tend to share our experiences in church, devotions, etc... and i do believe God is allowing this time away from mr. leif, so that i will rely on Him for my comfort, support, and peace, and not just turn to mr. leif for those needs.

this is why my post is lovely, because i have a new outlook on the next 8 months of being in a different pond then mr. leif.

........but boy oh boy, i cannot wait until he finally swims home to me.....to be 2 fish in 1 pond again, that will be lovely!!